It sucks knowing that I could still rally with the NDR but I am not able to because the one person who can help me chose not to have a relationship with me.
I really miss racing, guys.
It honestly must just be me.
These past few weeks have been one long anxiety attack,
I cant eat.
I cant sleep.
I cry at least once a day.
Everything seems to be happening at once.
It will be calm for a day and then something bad will happen.
I guess it’s my fault.
Is it karma?
I don’t know.
TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF HIGHSCHOOL
I could be sad but im not, because I am making a penis cake soooo
My heart physically hurts
and I mean tired in everyway possible.
I’m just tired.
Last night was my last band concert ever. All the seniors got recognized in a slide show and got a plaque.
Tonight was my last Drama production, we did it downtown in an art gallery and it was really cute and fun and I messed up a lot but it didnt matter because it was so much fun.
Tomorrow is prom.
and next week is my last week of school.
where has the time gone?!
I’m getting tired of people trying to “cheer me up”
I’m allowed to feel sorry for myself.
I’m allowed to be sad.
No one is going to cheer me up.
Just leave me alone.
And why does everyone make me feel like shit for not caring about other peoples problems for once in my life?
Like, I dont give a shit. I have to worry about myself for once, and if you think I am selfish then so be it. Because I don’t give two shits.
I give up..
I am such a sensitive person, but no one really realizes that because I pretend to laugh everything off.
When I went to go get my dress tailored, the lady was sticking her hands in my cleveage, which is no big deal because its her job, but then she was also making really intense eye contact which made me feel super awkward.
I got my prom dress today guys! It’s perfect. It’s not a stereotypical tacky prom dress. It’s Vintage hollywood redcarpet glamorous. It’s slightly big, so I have to get it taken in, but IM IN LOVEEEEEEE.